What is going on with Jade?

I have been sitting on this and not writing anything for a couple of days now because it is so upsetting that I am at a loss for words.

Who knew parenting would be so hard?

It seems like everyone that has betrayed our family has done so after we have given them something for nothing. They do so after we have been selfless and kind to them. After we have sacrificed a lot for them. THAT is when they turn around and stab us in the back. Brandon did it. Jenny did it. Josh is kind of doing it and now Jade is doing it.

We have done nothing but try to help her and instead of thanks we get back is secrecy and lies and an attitude that is so hateful it is hard to even fathom. It’s not just her mother or I either. It is both boys as well. She hates us and uses us. It is painful.

Something is going on with her. Not only does it not make any sense that she would be this hateful, but she seems to have a split personality as well. On the one hand she says she wants to get close to God and on the other she does anything but get close to God. She says she is not on her phone all that much and yet she is on it so much that she feels Social Media is reality. She will say she wants us dead and that she wishes I never adopted her, and then seconds later insists she wasn’t mad and will ask us for favors.

She has no regard for anyone that lives here, including Zephaniah. Everyone is beneath her and an obstacle. She walks into our house unannounced and then refuses to tell us where she lives because she fears we will stop by someday.

I am praying for the whole family, and I am doing my best to trust in my Lord. He knows what He is doing. I just need to trust Him with this.

That is all I have to say about this right now. I have to get back to work.